Saturday, March 02, 2013

It's Going to Hurt

Having little A has been mostly amazing, obviously a little stress and exhaustion are mixed in there too, but mostly amazing.

Today I was changing A when I felt Tariku staring at me. I smiled at him, "What's up, babe?"

"I like watching you with A, I feel like that's how you would have been to me if you had me when I was 2."

"Oh Tariku, I think I would've been even better with you. Because you are my son and I knew it from the moment I met you. With A I don't know how long she'll be with us so I can feel myself holding back a little bit. Sometimes it's scary to fall in love with someone if you know they might leave. You ever felt like that before?"

"Yeah, I know exactly what that feels like."

One of the more remarkable things that has come with us becoming foster parents is just how it's affecting our adopted kiddos, specifically Tariku. I've been pleasantly surprised to see they are reassured of their permanency every time another child comes for a bit then leaves.

I'm so thankful for where we're at. It was a long road to get here but dammit it was worth it.


Lynne said...

You rock Tesi!

ChiTown Girl said...

That kid is freakin' awesome. As is his mother!!

Every time I open your page, I can't help but smile. I big, goofy, ear-to-ear, smile. All thanks to that gorgeous picture of your babies. I especially LOVE the look of pure joy on Doozie's face. :P

Cindy said...

Sweet boy.

Katie said...

Oh, that tugs at the heart strings.

Ingrid said...

Such amazing thoughts and words you shared with one another....Love, love, love.

Sha Zam- said...

little teary and choked up on that one babe.

rebekah said...

We need to come visit this summer.